As you already know from my welcome page, my name is Jennifer Merrill, although my friends generally call me Jen or Jenny. I'm a happily married, hetero CD/TG (if you really care about labels -- I generally don't!) California girl from Los Angeles who's been going out as a woman pretty much anywhere I want for the last 13 years or so (stop doing the math in your pretty little head -- I'm not that old!!! Just be comfortable that I'm no longer jailbait.). On the lighter side, I'm about the same size as Brooke Shields (all right, so maybe she's a little more statuesque than me, but not by much!). I have blue eyes and (usually) blonde, shoulder-length hair.

I only began to come to terms with my femme side about 14-15 years ago, even though I had known since I was about 3 that I was (what I might now refer to as) severely gender conflicted. But I didn't think that there was anybody else in the world who had those same feelings (particularly since I found myself attracted sexually to women and not to men). Of course, today with the internet, which seems to be absolutely saturated with the transgendered world, that sense of isolation seems almost laughable. However, with no role models and no community to look to for support, I assumed that, if I was "tough" enough and stoic enough, these feelings would eventually go away and I would grow out of them. I also was certain that I would be "butt ugly" as a woman and absolutely incapable of ever being seen by anyone else dressed en femme -- certainly not out in public.

In terms of my look, it's evolved a lot over the years. I was extremely fortunate when I started going out as a woman. When I first started going out, I was very lucky to be "adopted" by some gorgeous female impersonators (a great stroke of luck for a hetero CD) and a couple of them were professional cosmetologists. They made me their pet project and I reveled in the attention and tried to learn everything that they knew about transforming male-ness into femininity. My early look ran from gorgeous diva with big blonde hair and extremely short skirts and dresses to fierce drag queen with double-layered false eyelashes and stiletto platforms, etc.

Early in the year 2000, I suddenly discovered the TG world on the Internet. All right, so I'm a little slow! What do you want from me? I am a blonde, after all. A girl has her prerogatives! :-) Some of the friends who I met as I was cruising the Web encouraged me to develop a website. I thought it sounded like fun and this is the result. And the reaction has been incredible! I've met hundreds of new friends from all over the world as a result of this website. Even more incredibly, I've been able to help other TGs find enough courage to break out of their closets and to venture out into the real world. I never dreamed that having a website could be so much fun or so rewarding! All right, I'm getting a little teary-eyed just thinking about it, and I refuse to get too sappy in public. I also would hate for my mascara to run just as I'm hoping that you'll check out some of my photos and let me know what you think. :-)

While I've gone out with other T-girls over the years and have many close friends in the community, the last couple of years I've generally gone out on my own. On my own, while I get admiring glances from men and occasional envious glances from women (the curse of being an elegant 6' blonde with a nice figure), I've never been hassled while shopping, dining, clubbing or running errands, daytime or evenings. In contrast, when you're out with a group of Amazons, I find it much more difficult to simply enjoy the experience and to blend in with everyone else. On the other hand, it can be a lot of fun just to blow people's minds once in a while, so don't get the idea that I'm averse to partying or to cruising Santa Monica Boulevard with a bunch of queens in tow!